Month: October 2015

Why have i changed ? why am i emotionless ? it’s like I’ve gone through reverse metamorphosis from butterfly to caterpillar . What is wrong with me ? Is there something wrong with me ?  I’ve tired to be a saint , but i am a solider . Is this my purpose , covered in green like a guardian of nature .

Our unit moved out of Tango Urilla the task was subtraction . We were the zebra’s not because of the animal but the color , we were full of  good and bad men , but us knowing was pointless , We were men of chaos with a purpose of harmony , we were lost souls in heavens playground , Hades lap dogs in Zeus cage.

All my life I’ve been in situations like this. I have tried to avoid it but it just happens. In the space of a one year, I’ve moved from twenty to forty homes, all this because of what I’ve seen and done.

It all started thirty years ago, 1836 in New Orleans. Me and my family just moved from Italy, well I say moved, we were cast out. See I was going through ‘the change’, something that happens to my family members when we go through puberty. My alpha, I mean father, is training me to control myself during the change. It’s so boring all we do is climb, run and meditate. Before we moved to New Orleans he told me this, “You will see things, things that are strange to you. Do not get involved.”

I asked him “What will I see?”

He looked at me and for some reason I didn’t want him to answer.

Before I trained, my mind was wild and unorganised. I was having random burst of rage following black outs, sometimes I would hurt people and not know why. No school wanted me in the country. I didn’t want to leave Italy, it’s the foundation of my bloodline, my ancestral home,  but my body is changing so my home must.

I am starting to feel different my senses have improved. I can hear the first droplet of rain as it crashes to the ground, I can smell pheromones of animals and see even the smallest of insects. Sometimes using these skills affects my body and drains my energy, my alpha said I need to learn to control before they are used, he said using these skills without practice could drain my life force. My alpha has a sort of control over use we must obey it is pack law, beta’s and omega’s obey and alpha’s lead.

At Least my pack is friendly but there is one we call Merrick, he’s not like the rest of us, he quiet, he keeps himself to him self. His eye’s are silver, this might not seem strange to you but everyone in the pack have hazel eyes, except the alpha his are red. Merrick is different compares to the rest of us, but I don’t mind him.

Today’s the day, the full moon.This is were I will ‘ change ‘ am I scared ? Extremely but I can’t avoid this moment so I’m scared but ready. I have imagined what it would be like to change. The pain, my body being tested to its limit, my temperature rising my body expanding.

My alpha sat me down and explained what would happen, he said my body will change and I will be reborn, remodelled as my true self,the animal within my soul,the big bad wolf.